Goody goody?

Sometimes I feel like a deer caught in headlights.
Its been a really crazy month. It starts off with my mom swallowing a bee and getting stung in her throat. Long story short we had to rush her into the emergency room, they checked her out and they said she should be fine. Praise the LORD!! Then I was babysitting my little 8 year old cousin and he decided he wanted to play his "toothpick" game... He hid all his toothpicks around the house and I found all but 2... He had hid them in my boot and went to bed without telling me! So I slip my boot on and the toothpick goes right into my foot!
Then there's girls... So I found out yesterday I am a goody goody and its a bad thing! What?!?! How in the world can a goody goody be a bad thing? Well you can be that girl that thinks she is better than everyone else, but I promise I am NOT that type! *scouts honor!!* ROFL (Inside joke)
I just wish everyone knew what I have been through and what I have done, then they would know why I am the way I am.
I am not being miss goody to-shoes just to be one. I have been there and done that!
Just about any bad thing you can think of, I have done it... No I am not proud of that, but I have come to terms with everything.
I mean girls will come up to my face and tell me to live a little! I do live, I embrace life, I laugh at life, I love life, I hate life, I live life.
I mean I have my boundaries like, I am in the world but not of it, respect my elders, don't smoke, don't do drugs, etc... You know.
Just because I don't think ticking my teacher off is a good idea I am all the sudden a goody goody... I mean what's up with that?
I know how to have fun but not pushing it too far, ya know?
I get told by sooo many people how I am such a good kid, I am hilarious, I am loving and I should always keep it up, but then I turn around and someone else is dragging me down into the dirt..
Do you know how that feels?
It hurts.
Bad!
I have no doubt this is a test sent from the LORD and the devil coming after me. I know I have got to turn the other cheek and keep going.
Praise the LORD, Praise the LORD, Praise the LORD!! Never forget that!
You have to have that unwavering faith and that passion to keep moving forward.
If you even start to shake, they will knock you down and you wont even see it coming... Believe me, I know from experience!
So never forget, your never doing any of this alone.
Ever.
Taterbug