The LORD is my shepherd. I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters.

So this week has been really hard. Not only for me but the McGee's as well. I think we have finally come to the point where we are giving it all to GOD and letting it unfold in His will.

It's been so hard for me not to break down and cry. And I am going to admit I did have my moments when I did cry and I really wanted to hit something or someone...

Mandy is a wonderful women and she didn't deserve any of this!

I desperately want to tell you, "She made it through and she got to have the baby at home and she isn't sick!"

But I can't...

But I think I have finally come to terms. I no longer want to ram something into the wall or break down and cry myself to sleep. I have given it all to the LORD and I know He will take care of her and the Baby, along with everything else.

I was really upset! I had never seen Mandy cry the way she did, and when I seen her cry a wall went up inside me and I couldn't make it go away. With all the power in me, ohhh, it just didn't want to go away...

Finally I prayed and asked the LORD to forgive me and asked why I am so selfish?

I gave in.

I hated to feel all that pain and hate, so I gave in. And when I say I gave in, I mean I gave in!

I gave it all to GOD and trusted Him.

And guess what?

My heart is at peace and I can rest!

The LORD is my Shepard. I shall not want. He leads me beside still waters.

I have been thinking about that allot.

All I wanted was for Mandy and the baby to be ok and for her to have the baby as she had hope for.

But the LORD had different plans, and He is the Holy one that leads me beside still waters.

And that's just what he did, he lead me beside still waters. Where my heart is at peace!

Now if He can lead me beside still water I am almost certain He can fix all of this! lol

I feel completely at peace and fine with the whole thing.

No it isn't the best thing but I know the LORDs will, will unfold into something beautiful!

So be at peace and trust the LORD, He will lead you beside still waters!

Taylor